dam , since i can't sleep i decide make use of this chance to post ! Lol . I think cause i nap in the afternoon thus cause me now can't sleep . Like is as bored as usual and i don't know what to do . Can't find any work , or rather should i say i am quite lazy to look for . Ar ! And ya , i do hate my father which is obviously a ..... So bias never mind le , still so kp . I feel one day i would be going mad and kill him with a chopper ! This may seems i am bad , bu xiao , whatever , unless you experience what i felt , then you can scold me ba ! Ya , i do know . My family is much more better than others , there much more poorer , sad people out in the world , i should feel blessed that i have such a good family le . Ya i also know that everyone would have problems ,
But even all this , deep inside my heart , i still felt , it's so UNFAIR .
UNFAIR!

currently waiting to go for de count down party ! hope it won't rain , and be fun ! joel is really a bastard LOL , come my hse take my mum food to eat LOL , ok say hao ting is my mum give him eat first, say nan ting is he cheapo LOL juz joking .. k , hope today would be fun !!!

painful thoughts. fuck up life . fianlly know what's de feeling of heart sinking , this sucks, it hurts ! stupid life , i feel like dying, a solution to all problems, but i no have de courage ba . ppl call this mood swing, i donnoe , but i really hope, i won't feel like this anymore , i feel so stress up , i feel like crying, but after venting out . i felt better .
i should count myself , ermmm.. " blessing in disguise" my life is much more better than many of others, at least i have a family , food , clothing ,
everyone have problems, it's only matter how we are going to handle it ! i know it sucks , but i think i will get over soon ba .

ps: living in this world , it's actually the most painful punishment that one can receive , but it's also can be de best gift one can receive . it's hard i know , but i choose the better side

i just saw a shake speare show , the craft's man play -.- no feeling to express my thoughts

i don't know what to update , i only know i am troubled , disappointed, angry !!! so i think i juz post this interesting stuff which i first saw at skj blog, then lazy do , then i saw at cs blog, which i decide to "play" so here it go, my personality, which is quite true !


You Are Spontaneous and Whimsical
You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

A.Tag 8 people to do the quiz. those who are tagged cannot refuse.
B.Continue this game by tagging 8 other people.

i don want con't this game

1. What have you been doing recently?
i jus came bak from malaysia -.-

2. Do you ever turn off your cellphone?
Yups

3. What happened at 10am today?
sleeping XD

4. When did you last cry?
hmm no idea

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
no idea

6. What do you need in your life now?
aims

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains,or just put on your hood?
neither both

8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
sleep or use phone to online msn

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
sports 1

10.What's the nicest things in your inbox?
some1 wishing me a happy birthday , which i was finally 16

11. Do you tend to make the relationship more complicated?
not anymore

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
nopes
13. What was the last movie you caught?
THE DAY THE EARTH THIS STOOD STILL ( think spell like tihs)

14. What are you proud of?
being in npcc

15. What does the oldest text message in you inbox say?
nice that u had fun :) bon voyage .... Etc.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
i believe

17. Do you have any nicknames?
fishball

18. What does your newest text say?
no. place very far

19. What time you go to bed last night?
1 plus ba

20. Are you currently happy?
u can put it tat way ..

21. Who gives you the best advice?
yf

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
i don like whipped cream

23. Who did you talked on the phone last night?
erm , no 1

24. Is something bugging you now?
yes ..

25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
yf LOL

should i or should i not forgive her , should i do like what yf say ... I really don't know . For now , i am thinking what's life .
Hmmm , kind of stress , i feel there is no meaning , i mean like , we live in a world that we do the same thing every day . Enlightment , i need it !
For friends , i have no comment , we seems to drift further apart , i did what i can , and that's it man .
Hmmm , for study , i fear for english ... Ok don't think too much ba ys .
Ps . Why am i getting so emotional ?

i am so angry ....................... it's no funny at all ............. disappointed

3th dec , muahhaah , the best birthday celebration i have everrrrrr ! thanks skj and yf =) the best part is when they 2 fighting , LOL i there enjoy . then say till yf, he's a idiot LOL, it's my birthday and he the one acutally sitting there, while i serve him LOL , macham reverse like this, haha , but it's fun !! watch-ed the movie , it was great la , at that moment i also release how weak determind i am to live in this world , cuz throughout the movie i was thinking , if it was me i will juz sucide . hmmm . anyway , it's FUN .

ok , went to malaysia ! hmmm , ate and ate and ate LLOL this the only thing i do. then i learn some malay ( to scold ppl ) LOL kokola!!! ok buy many things woots ! so shoik ! and also present la , not like that idiot cadman , won't buy de LOL ok , i update picture ltr, hope yf fast fast online so i can dota LOL

today was suppose to be a happy day, cuz i am celebrating for my birthday !! but , it's juz like last time ! i feel juz normal lor !! but thanks lc for keep cheering me ! yeh , it's fair , after so much i got to watch a good movie , city of ember , HIGHLY RECOMMAND ok ok , that's it . Hope tml will be a good outing !! =)

HAPPY AIDS DAY ,
this is not a insult , seriously , aid are a dam fuck up virus , if only there no such thing exisit ! after reading fatal seuduction , u will understand how i will feel le ! haix

i though of getting contact lense , ear hole, but i think both don suits me , but but , i really feel like having them ? hmmmmm,
finally end of 3 day of work !! haha make a lots of new friends !! and and i even know a wcg rank 4 player HAHA! and issaz taught us how to hong zha bor LOL , he succeed to know a number of a dam pretty girl !! ( lucky only ) yeh , and i know new computer knowledge, abt rams , intel processer all this ! thanks darren !
btw , de third day of my work was quite slack , expect for de part i need go to take the dam trolly ! and somemore de idiot in-charge asked me to pull over which 2 lousy troll , containing 2 box, it's like dam hard la !! i haven reach de hall i start losing hope , i sweat-ed all over ! but i haven even reach there ! dam it ! ok , but thinking of the good pay , i juz con't slowly pull !
hmmmmmm, i juz relieased , 4 four days to my birthday =)) , but but , i can't celebrate with my gang or friends , or any 1 !! cuz i going oversea, ! it's always like this ... haix