painful thoughts. fuck up life . fianlly know what's de feeling of heart sinking , this sucks, it hurts ! stupid life , i feel like dying, a solution to all problems, but i no have de courage ba . ppl call this mood swing, i donnoe , but i really hope, i won't feel like this anymore , i feel so stress up , i feel like crying, but after venting out . i felt better .
i should count myself , ermmm.. " blessing in disguise" my life is much more better than many of others, at least i have a family , food , clothing ,
everyone have problems, it's only matter how we are going to handle it ! i know it sucks , but i think i will get over soon ba .

ps: living in this world , it's actually the most painful punishment that one can receive , but it's also can be de best gift one can receive . it's hard i know , but i choose the better side