just friend only , please .
Nothing much more i swear
Please , trust me , just friend .
Please .

Happy cny to all

already cold war so long le , what you want ? Haix . Thanks man , you all break the promise , then scold me , kp me . Then everything turn my fault . Excellent :) i will clap for you all . So , now , i will learn how to make someone angry , du lan . While not being the one in fault . Ya , i will seriously do this .

Fuck you .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENIE ZHUO WEN XUANNNNNNNNN ! !


today was so boreeeeeeeeeeeeee , not going bball le ! ytd + ytd ytd is a great day ! we ton at yf hse to play mahjong LOL , dam funnyyyyyyy . actually i don really know what to update of =.= my life is as bore as ... hahah can't think of any comparsion ! k , all i can say is i am looking forward to thursday !!!!!!! where we gang can come together to SHOP again ;D


anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd , lastly
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENIE ;D ( although u won't see this)

woots ! saw genie again :DD but sian , not really clear ! . o yeh , she in cute verison today , so chioooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo la !

lol, i have a good comparison to what i am doing now , i am actually styling hair ( this i hate last time ) , wearing contact lenese ( which i don like last time ) , goin for ear hole ( which i feel gay last time ) , it's juz like de twiilight , belle , cheating on what she promised , actually i don really need or want all this ! i do it cuz i wanna have de feel of "not-the-usually-ys" . u may say i am mad , but going against "bad" make me feel sort of cool .

donnoe what changed me , but this feeling is better .

ARRRRRRRRRRRR. genie FTW , omg , she so pretty, so so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee , soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute. ar,but hope the "real" her also like this la ! sian, i don't think i am going to attend such event anymore. cuzz. firstly, i never want someone's attention so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh , secondly i want herrrrrrrrrrrrrr . this sucks , de feeling sucks. during de concert , i juz feel , wahhhhhhh if i can know her, that's go GREAT ! arrrrrrrrrrr, i donnoe la , ihate this i really really hate this ! and after con't read de twiilight book 1 and 2 , as usually a world created in my mind , but this time it's worse =.= . after reading for so longggggggggg i am actually feeling what de person was feeling, i donnoe how to explain , but this so . . . ! it sucks !

when i do thing, i get de feeeling when edward left bella , and yeh ! and yeh , and . k nth, i donnoe how to explain this . and i am lazy to remove , so left it here

k , don say i emo , i juz feeling LOST. who am i , and what am i .

hmmm , yes !i make it to poly !!! hhahahaha
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this suckssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
i can't control this feeling well ,
i din really score well for my olvl
i never do well for my standard
i donnoe where to go with my marks
i am stress with my life ,
i have no more aim nor promise
+ yf is gone , no 1 to confront ,
. what to do , :( please reply me like last time , thanks ton

for ur fucking attitude go fuck urself , fuck u man . u seriously sucks, tmd gnd man . i only ask 1 fucking question and u need so xl la , ccb , go fuck urself la . what a great friend ur being, i am dam dulan abt u le . congrats for over my limit , i have no more patience for u .
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last day. good luck ys.

ya, it's time to update ! ok , i just finish watching red cliff 2 , awesome xD . go watch hahaha , on top of it , i went to dunearn + ijc LooooooooooooooL . poor aloy ar ! :D . ok, nth much to say actually , juz was sian + sian + sian . catch up with some friends and feel nice haha . count down : 2 days

although u all will say i crap or fake or ttm or negative . but .. LOL never mind i not going to type it le . firstly cuz i don want to curse myself , secondly , i don think i will be motivated to do it . k so nth LOL

lasttttttttt but no least LOL , i am going to logistic baaaaaa since there a few course that i am really interested in .

Ps: u found out ? (no please , nth happened previously )

today was fun !! went to sch , and ya, walk walk around , play bball ,talk , slack , quite relaxing !!! ok , after that we went to yingyao hse , LOL man , we play a game which is like dam fun la ! i donnoe to them or not , but to me , it's so cool + fun LOL . maybe going back tml . see first ba !! like i say , i am really back to normal :D all those emo moment are over, time for a happy go lucky YS ,
PS: i will do my best to find a job soon , ( dam in need of money)
Pps, i will buy my new year clothes myself !!
pppsssss, COUNTDOWN TO OLVL :6 DAYS

i decided le , i won't be like this le :) this will only scare her . Ok ! I won't even mention about this incident or whatever le , ya !

Wo yao tou tou de ai zhe ni

i think u have realise who ur , i really regret that i have actually said out all this in my blog, fuck man , maybe ur going to ignore me , maybe u not going to contact me , maybe we can't even be friend . ya , i am being sensitive again , but fuck man , i really hate this feeling , i cant help but recall abt what happened before. can u tell me that all this is juz a dream , can any1 do this please , i really really wish that it is , cuz it sucks , it hurts. i donnoe why , but i wish that ur not lying abt what u said that time , cuz , that de only happy thing that will keep me hanging,

and , my "G" key , juz become a touch 1 , instead of pressing.

u know what , this sucks , it really do , i really really donnoe what to say , u definitely won't believe this. how i wish to tell u , but how would u believe me , after all it's so long le . i really wanna sms u , " would u believe that i still like you " but , yeh i know , it's impossbile , so that's it ! during that malaysia trip , my mind was full of YOU , but i juz feel guilty, and i deny that , but after what happened, i will admit it , de feeling are back . u may say that i sort of mess up or whatever , but i am quite sure what i am saying . i can rmb what we did , what we say , what i do , but it's all over, and i am sure it wont repeat , let me end with , I SUCKS.

JUNE , U KNOW JUNE ? FUCK.

i have came up to a decision le , but yf i tell u what , i juz dreamed of HER, it was dam good , i don think i can forget abt her , it's dam dam dam hard . i really wish i was at june , those memories are pretty good , please man , this sucks ! i now it is i-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e , but it juz cant forget , you know who .

PS, i love and i hate june

first , i will update de post promised to skj !
24/12/08 !
CHIRSTMAS EVE WAS FUNNNNN. lol , but it was quite sad, i bought a lousy spray , in the end causing aloy and joel to pay more !!! sorry ! starting there was no 1 playing , then they all like sian sian . scare if no ppl going to plaY ! after that , we went ard cini ! there was dam many ppl ! we have fun ! and jolene was a teamkiller , she keep spray on us lol ! most funny part was, when all , yf , joel , jolene , aloy , they all spray on me LOL and de reason is , cuz i was wearing black , and they mistook me as de other person LOL , dam funny when i stand up and they say " LOL WRONG PERSON" ok that's all i can rmb , after it we went to clubbing , which ltr was cancel , and we WALK to bugis there , dined and home . de food was nice , chat was good ! aloy was drunk and keep talking alot , making us all laugh at his action ! hahahahaha !

31/12/08 !
LOL , this was SO LOL , me cadman yx was supposed to buy de food for steamboat AND , i acutally think bringing 20 dollar was enough LOLLOL , cadman only brought 5 LOL . so in the end , we spent 120 , which was need to pay by my nets . ok , after taht we went to aloy hse ! which was dammmmmmmmm nice and quite big ! then yx cooked noodle for me and cadman ! then we proceed to our preparation of steamboat , and yf and pris joined ! when all is done , abt 6.30 ++ Yy came !! and we started our firsrt round of steamboat ! it's was fun man everyone enjoying it ! woots, macham like family like this hahaha ! cooking for each other ! ok , next some1 did a super irrrating thing , spoilt mood only , but funny , no 1 cared abt ! then then we play murder , and was so high ! lol and many more games ! after it we went to de living room and chat abt ghost story , woah make my heart dam tensed LOL . and joel soon came ,me yy and him went to cheers to buy de wine + beer . then RAN to aloy hse , cuz we was late for countdown , but lucky we make it on time ! so i went around shaking ppl hand say happy new year ! hahaha
PS. i say my new year resoultion , which was to get good o lvl result LOL

1/1/09!
happy new year guys :D ok this was fun, we start drinking our beer and wine , and no 1 shared with me , so i drink de whole bottle of breezer , the drink was like orange only lor , only bitter abit ! then i feel quite sleepy and dizzy LOL . and we watched de M18 ghost story , de story was dots ! lol firstly , not scary ! secondly no nude screen , LOL i wonder why m18 !!! ok , next we proceed to de 2nd round of steamboat LOL , this was for joel, cause he haven eat, was quite quiet during de 2nd round . but it was still so full and nice :D . then we went in de aloy 's room to play "bridge" quite a fun game intro and taught by YY. hahah , then we start playing blackjack , betting on 10 cent per card ! i lost 2.50 and joel 2.50 and yy won 5 , while yf never win or lose LOL . after it we play de see-whose-card-most-small then we must drinnk de beer LOL, i drink for 2 times , YUCKS, then next , we go take a new can , now different case le , now is pour-how-much-drink-loser-drink LOL, then yy was dam LUCKY, he poor half bottle of can , and yf was to drink all of it LLOLLLLL . ok , bad start right ! start new year on gambling and drinking ! so we was going to send joel down for cab, AND , WE STUCK IN DE LIFT LOL !! WHAT A GOOD DAY LOL. lucky sia , last moment i bring my phone along, LOL so dam lucky , ok so we waited around 30 min and de person get us out ! and send joel home , and we went to guest room to sleep le! woke at 6 and went walked to lot 1 with yy , chatted and was hmmm cool ! then home sweet home !