fucking headache and slight fever, but i don think would die ba !
cause i promised joel to go shopping with him today, yeah , just hope i don die outside

cuz , i haven attend the bbq on 7/9 ! really looking forward to meet all those friends :)

all please come ar.

aiyoyo was suppose to post many photos, but blogger "spoilt" again!

currently waiting for yf, then after 1 game then i would start studying ! finish up my last test paper ................... which means holiday is coming :)

ok , i was blog hopping and i see many people posting about what will they do after olvl, party till drop, game , go out ,
just like what i used to tell my friend, but in the end, gathering also hard :(
i still rmb that i said after olvl i am going to DOTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, and i really did LOL, i rmb for 2 weeks , all i do is to wake up and dota, night le sleep , then tml wake up dota, then dota to sleep again.

just feel how wasted my holiday goes, yeahhhhh
and i really miss those studying moments with wee cheng brother ! hahaha funny joker, here this to show my graduite to u _|_ _|_ _|_ ! give u 3 hor.

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,



6As

Every time i fall, i will just strike back harder and faster than before.
Gonna ram my way back.


so cya :D



be back after FT

ha, i broke the promise 1 by 1 again
i hate it , i really hate myself
i still say what this time i am serious
fuck u man FUCK U.
argh

how man, if only i can be brain washed and restart this whole life.





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why.

woah , i was suppose to put in the picture of the present mr chee gave me :) but that's sad , blogger can't upload. or should i say i cannot find the picture key !

k never mind! let me action abit, it's rare to see ys top in class right ? so well, i got 2nd in common test for my class only , that's like, u sure is ys? LOL. but yeah, although it's 2nd because the overall mark, but for gpa i got top for CT, quite sure, 3a 1b+ :)

but like in my class, i feel like godlike, but compare to the others, which are almost all A+ and a , well don need say le LOL.

but for 4 years in dunearn, i don rmb i getting top 5 or even 10 , so this is quite cool, :)

i hate poly more as the day go by, cause nth interest me. anddddddddddd it's getting boring :(

ok , just want to post up my to-do list, and and talk abt this few days!
so , tuesday went for muay thai and i failed the grading , which mean i need sacrifice my sat
AND , i finish my FP CATS IMA WOOOOOTS, i am left with snw , cos , bs, fsp, and snw is finishing soon :)
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh and today director tea session is a very time wasting one ! totally wastage of time ,
and yeah quite sian my mouse spoil, but should not say anything.

k to-do list time

FSP project,
Bs revision
Cos revision
Sat go grading
Sun do FSP

well that's all i rmb!
tired....

time check :3:46

awww , haven finish my fp project , cat project.
back from mac after finishing my laptop bat ! and there's no power point.
and cousin wanna sleep !
ok , need to finish up my stuff by tml ba.
nothing much to post , cause there's nothing worth !


hate to be ignored, but i learn to be used to it

dam , i missed fsp today againnnnnnnnnn. seriously i wonder what am i thinking . it's like the angel and the devil came out again . and obviously the devil won !

fuck , i am not doing well like what i promised. since holiday finish , i haven being listening to class, doing work or even studying. zzzzzz, this not what i promised ... all i have being doing is just games games gamesssssssssssssssssss , joke joke joke!

ma de , time to get serious le. cause i won't break any promise i made to u, and i want my dream to come true :)

ytd, celebration of yh birthday, went to kbox and surprised him with " double cake " by aloy's idea !
about the kbox, really was boring, as we all was talking instead of singing LOL, totally wastage of money !
after next, we went to catch a movie, sunshine cleaning, it was stated to be comedy , but i don feel that it that funny ! but anyway, to me la , personally i feel that the movie was ok la, it contain many important factor of life ! yeah, it's abit sian, but overall it's still ok :)

okkkkkkkkkkkkkk so , we went home after that !
and i watched tian cai cong cong congggggggggggggggggg
and went to la la land !

and , i have a wonderful dream, really really wonderful.
how i hope this dream will happen, but deep inside i know it's impossbile !
all i know is when i wake up , i feel so pain , like "FUCKKKKKKKK" feeling inside,
but , really, the dream is dam sweet :(
although i know it's impossbile, but please man, just let it happen fucking please...
just 1 chance :)

watched harry potter today ! to me it's like quite nice , but i heard the rating is 1.5 and and joel all say it's not that nice. ok , halfway through the movie i have a high tide LOL. but i don wanna miss any part of the movie , so i decided to ren all the way till the end , woah it sucks man.

ok , after that we went to pool , quite fun, but donnoe why , i just feel that this so boring man. nothing interesting !

nth much to say le , just that today was great ! hahaha , i feel like buying all the harry potter book , from ep 1 to 7 , and re read the whole thing, but welllll, i don have the money and time, sooo lets just see :)
k , i also looking foward to read ps i loveyou and time traveler

Excited , because tml is friday :) means i get my sleep !
excited , because tml would be watching harry potter with old friends :)
excited, because tml is elearning day, means NO FP , means.... 9 ~ 11 :)
excited , because i going play dota with my classmate , it's a full team ,
excited, because finally everything is so well plan , or should say organised !
and and , because i make another step ! :D

o, din update for the few days as i never use my laptop in the night ! so welllll,
can't rmb what i did for the past few days, but all i know i am very tired =.= and and , the rashes are getting itchy, arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

ok , that's all for today, i need my sleep , if not tml fsp dream again !! :)

as stated in the horoscope , pink is my lucky colour, because it saved me from losing my laptop ! ok not saying why, just that so dulan and disappointed in myself !

drinking party is over, now thinking of what to do ! quite relaxing, but aloy is sleeping outside now ! and and , quite fun actually. ok nth much to post le,

now was feeling very very tiring, and i can't watch jiang qian , cause the promotion over!
ok, today i came late for school, cause watch scv movie channel till too late, in the morning i think i offed the alarm! not sure,
ok , skip the school part, and went to find cousins for bball, was tiring but fun, so long since i last play ! but well, i just suddenly rmb best dude cadmanchew! hahah from don't know how to play bball till now , where he know how to lay up all this le ! :) i miss those bball momentssss . ok ok, i don wanna stress my eyes up le , although there more stuff to say, maybe next time !

ytd was too tired to update , and dam , i missed fsp today , and it seems that i cannot catch up le -.- , guess i ask to ask others to teach me le . Currently at cwp watching and waiting for joel and bensley to finish their food so i can go home and sleep ! And there be cos test tml , argh so boring man . . .
Tml will be visiting singtel , hope it be fun , life has being boring but it's alright , very fast everything will start to change :)

well , today was a TIRING DAY. cause , supposedly it will end at 12 am and i will go home for my wonderful nap and go for muay thai ! but, i can't reach my gym target, so i must stay back and do !

ok went to sch to meet ec for breakfast, and we went to gym class, do up a bit of machines and plan to finish rest later ! so went for cats, and did so evulatation on our project.

k , so after sch went to sim for lunch, and went to "tour" around ngee an , due to yufan , but it's alright , but he this F***-er , end up not going sign up for gym, so i must walk alone to canteen 2 .
quite angry cause i spend up all my cash , and does not have a 50 cent coin to store up my bag in the locker AND AND , i already asked like a dog to lent a 50 cent coin but well , nbm ! lucky enough my coach came , and allow me to place my bag at the counter. so went to chiong all the weights!!!!!!!!!

and here come life saver , melvinLOO. he helped me quite a lot for the hand part, cause i already have no strength to carry on , well thanks melvin :) and we meet up with joel and bran , and home-ed . ok nothing much to say, just that i am so tired and well thanks melvin again :D

ytd wanna post de, but was busy watching scv while studying my Bstats, so no time !!!! while, who knows there's no test today, and what i study ytd was for next week =.= . waste my sleeping time :(

SUNDAY
wake up, and scv all the way, movies after movies, entertainment after entertainment , and thennn went to meet cadman and yufan up for a buffet and movie ! while enjoy at seoul garden with cadman trying to be funny , and yufan wasting food :S . well, quite much memories are popping up at there ~ same to the arcade ltr ,
ok , after arcade, we went to watch ice age 3 ! but i was quite sian cuz like no 3G , somemore we must sit in first row !
althought spend quite a sum of money, but it's worth to spend the time with cadman and yufan :)
don think in the gay way, it's just like the old times, where we watch movie EVERY friday, and i mean EVERY. like me cadman yf, after npcc will meet up at the night , to catch a midnight show ! it's really "zhen gui" memory , after that went home and wanan first bath ( cuz bbq smell, smelly) , who know in the end , saw tian cai cong cong cong on the scv, and watch all the way to 12 pm ! and take out my Bstats and watch some movie while revision .

Today
was boring , as i slept at 2 ++ ytd, and don't feel like waking up for sch, so i basic just skipped the whole 3 hour of fp =.= well , again, fp din really teach much , but i was wondering when can i kick out this bad habit of skipping sch when i like =.=
then class went on BORING , like usual , and play some dota games, and went home le . o yah , i saw js on the bus, omfg, he turn so slim !!!!
just finsh discussing my cats project, and currently posting,
Ok , so word-y

woahhhhhhh, today was suppose to be revision day, but well, ys was too "stuck" with the newly subscribed scv ! hahaha, there was so many , so muchhhhhhhhhh movie and show to watch, so well , hour and hour just pass by !

and well, my weekend is going to end le , must wait another 5 days to get more sleep again ! ( weekend = rest day = sleep ) :)
hahaa ok, nothing much more to update, currently just waiting for 10pm to continue my second part of harry potter :)

and yeah, i hope i can keep my 3 promises as long as possbile, nah , i MUST keep the promises forever :)

well well well , today was another "School" day ! time passed quite fast and i have not being paying attention , too sleepy !
after school was suppose to catch a movie, but in the end no time slot, so acc bran go eat and went back to dunearn to get my olvl cert !
as expected, it's still not done yet, so have to wait another time to come back and collect it .
went home and nap till night....
yeah glad that today is friday , and i can have my plenty of sleep at the week end :)


and and my legs still hurts !

:) bright new start , yeah and i like it .
quite sian about my poly life, but like i promised, i will do well no matter where i went !
yeah , so i will work hard !
abt my results, i think no need say ba !
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Happy birthday to ... joel pay, olivia , jack tng :S
haha although u all even come here or read this
but happy birthday :D

Lacrimosa dies illa
Qua resurget ex favilla
Judicandus homo reus.
Huic ergo parce, Deus,
Pie Jesu Domine

(English)
Ah! that day of tears and mourning!
From the dust of earth returning
man for judgment must prepare him;
Spare, O God, in mercy spare him!
Lord, all pitying, Jesus blest,
grant them thine eternal rest. Amen.


it's nice :D

for now , i really donnoe , i miss the moment we mahjong, i miss the every weekend stayover, but now , donnoe u guys la , i think we will become like sec 2 that time , never even rmb got "cousin" , donnoe man !

don really know what am i thinking, i am old , dumb , and definitely stupid

happy :D helm up le ! woots, thanks bin , and of cuz leon and ray
ok , so happy for what, it's a kid game
i HOPE i won't play it , as now going common test le
yeah , jy ys :D

ouch , miss you :(

should not be so dumb to ask ppl help mark attendance , now make others in trouble. ys , what are u doing . . .

nowadays are really boring mannnnnnnnn , common test is coming , and i got to study for it ! hope i can do well, nah , i will do my best.

so this how it feel, it's like i already predict something like this will happen, but i din know it feel so bad !

ok , i will work hard on my study and build my body,
that all will keep me busy
:(

so after all this , it's still hurt to think of you , i really wish that we can communitate like last time , :(

I miss you . June :(

ok , i feel like unfair if no post picture for aloy birthday ! So here it go , he look quite gay with the hand part ! Hehe

I think i be going to buy that pants from top man , :) :) hope money drop down

time to update! this week main focus for me is to celebrate aloy birthday ! yeah, same as usual , bought a cake and celebrate for him ! after that we went to lido to watch a movie and home sweet home !

i feel that this weekend passed a bit too fast ! i don feel that i rested , but at least i done some work ok ! it just feel back like mugging for olvl :D awww, i miss wee cheng brother !

ok , poly life is hectic , so project and stuff to do EVERYDAY! and and i don feel like i have start sch for 2months le , i think it's because i am packed with stuff to do, to the extend that i don have time to think much , and it's like ZOOOOM, the time just passed . all i remember was that i went sch at 9 everyday expect Tuesday, and do many project and presentation

how i wish i can hug you and sleep ,
How i wish i can hold your hand everyday,
How i wish i am always in contact with you ,
How i wish nothing has changed,
How i wish i can dream of you every night ,
How i wish i can be with you,
How i wish all this are true,
How i wish i am not wishing .

Ok today was boring , after a terrible head ache , which make me go squeeze my forehead , and now having a red scar ! Ar ~

I miss you .

don't really know what to say, poly was boring ...................................................................... life is boring.......................... well don't know!

ok nth.
decided not to post abt this ba

berernice curse the jerk man ! :D
Thanks mr chee for the treat.
3 year fly by , ( i hope so )

i am back although i say i am taking a break!! well cause i have a good jie mel :D hahaha , so i am feeling much better !
went out to 1e4 outing and was better than i expected, much "adult" topic LOL , but quite sad so many never come !

well , june is nearing , and yeah !it's being a month since i last talk to u , and if i still can say that i love you , i must be joking ( not trying to act 1 love sage ) .... it's like what i mention , i am just holding to those memory only. well , with june nearly really make me think of the memories more , but since i can survive without talking to u for 1 month , whats so difficult !
so much crap right .
but it's true

going for a long break .
Going keep low profile
Going to hell .
Happy birthday lh

i took muay thai not to whack ppl or spar , it's not also about pride or what, it's just that i wanna defend myself for a particular reason that really stress me out .
yeah , for now , i won't have to be like a pussy cat and hide from u

today did went to school only at the bs lesson ! while took the test and =.= LOL u must know what i mean , ltr i went movie with hui shan , and yeah hui shan ar, what a good movie LOL . yeah for wahtever reason, i am missing u , but yeah this time it does not hurt !

and ys , don fucking act 1 smart and be a hero or what ,

dammmmmmmm in the end still need go clinic , was too pain and can't resist it le ! well it costed 92 bucks , which was like @#!@#@#$@# , but no choice man. after the injection no more pain le ! but well it's kind of pai seh as he as to do the injection in my butt =.=

so i think tml won't be going to sch le , maybe will be going for the bs only , not sure

what a jerk , tsk whatever la , i helped her to my extreme! :D hope she feel happy , after seeing what he really were ~

ok my stomach is so pain now mannnnnnnnnn keep cramp then uncramp then cramppppp
painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
ok i haven study for my bs
W-T-H , ok brb time to do it .

ok , was suppose to update but went to watch xmen and went home late ~ anyway happy birthday to zc and jolene , which was like 1 few hour ago ! but nbm :D forgive me !

today brought the cake to sch with bran , and a veri kind auntie chill for us ! thanks. and then was plannign to give that jolene a surpirse, but was totally ruin out by the police which found her wallet a step faster than us ! well but the cake still delivered and we was like singing happy birthday in a SWEATING MODE, i swear we all like sweating like hell man ! but no choice, ppl birthday ! haha

next went for the gig , i was quite excited and high for the first few performance, but after that just get tired and rest. i feel that our group done well enough and of cuz since we done our best, so good jobs guys ! after finsh went to Je to meet up with cadman ! o yah , rmb u gt a brother like me , gt thing find me first, be4 u make any decision ( u-know-what) then we all went to watch xmen together, which include of yf + joel + aloy , and thanks joel again , for helping me get the discount ! hahaha ! yeah , ur right , i fianlly bought my bag !! argh !

ok , what a long time since i have such a post ! and "apple btm jeans jeans boots with the furrr" this line keep repeating LOL, i feel quite nice ( in terms of like how he sing out ) . wellll anyway it's a fruitful day !

o and ya, aloy sorry for the curry incident , pai seh mannnnnnn

i rmb i was going type something ytd, but i forget what i wanna say le , so well , nevermind~

i don dare if i gonna get good grades or what , but all i can say is i did my best, infact i done over what i can do ! i am much more better than u , u ,u ,u and you ! hahaha , poor team :(

and well today was quite good, i can do the fsp , means only the dumb bs i need to work hard ! i really really is drain out , but it's alright , 3 years it's a short time

just missing the pass , when i first meet skj and gang , when we first give each other nickname , when we first went out together , when we went to yf hse EVERYDAY, when we being drive off :D , so so so many stuff to miss, and ya, cadman chew ^^ , although just seen him last week, but it's like he really the closest buddy hahah , really look forward to friday where we go movie ~

it's all over, but i will keep those memories deep inside my heart,

feel like creating this post to rmb, all of u
my dearest friends

nbm decide to remove the post , what i can say, it's not that i wanna go the movie , it's what u all think .

what what what , she really cute, but yeah :D u-know-what

ok , today was really really tiring , and obvious pek cek ! went so farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr and i can't get the bag, it's like #@!#!@#@$#@, yawns, just hope sat i can get it le !

don't really know why i chnage back to this url , just that , maybe i perfectly overcome it ? ok , think so .

time heals~

muay thai was tiring ytd, ran the whole campus and do sets of pumping ,squats and crunches ! argh ! but it was fun anyway.
next was sparring session but i don dare go up lol, and so bensley joel and bran went up and fight , quite cool man ! i think next week i gonna try, but i am wearing specs , how how !

anyway, i was reading abt the doomday at 2012 . i don really know what to say la, if it's true , then hmmm no idea la ! 21/12/2012 , i won't be sleeping haha ! o ! whatever it is , i going finsh my poly that year, so it's quite happy LOL ?!?

a short update before i go off . i passed my first week with fun ! i mean , it's was like so exciting to call up all my dunearn friends , either to tell them to meet up for lunch , or going home . it was like cool !! to have all of our being together again ! i really really enjoy it haha . it was also quite fun when i web cam with lh and nat , although they keep laughign at my round face LOL, but it's funny when we do it .

ok , it hurts abit , but i hope ur not refering to the moments yeah . but it's alright , cuz the person which i love was not the "now" u , it was the pervious u , yeah get waht i mean ? so yeah , but again , i don have the courage to talk to u again , ya ! so take care , please .

anyway ! i am going out le , so bye ~

I can , and i will

HA, ok , acutally i gonna remove de i don like malay as mention peverious , he is a veri cool and stead guyLOL , most importantly he is veri friendly !

anyway, today was great ! release at 12 :D so i really hope the muay thai i taking not at tuesday , if not quite erm, bored? LOL cuz mostly i end at 4 or 5 hahaha . anyway it's quite cool as i can alway go home with brandon !

o ya, today managed to make a new friend ! cute girl lei :D thanks to cs , LOL , cause he asked me not to bring laptop for C-A-T-S , so in the end i need to share with her , and managed to talk and have fun :D

HA HE HO . life is getting more and more interesting, i gonna work hard ( actually no point saying here , cuz i rmb many post i wrote that LOL, but this time i will do my best :D ) cuz, my ultimate goal is UNI .

today was great , sort of OK la not great . i enjoy the ice breaking for the second time ! haha quite fun sia . ok my class no chio BUs but it's alright haha ! but i don like the malay and china LOL and quite alot of smoker mann .

anyway i maybe will be cahnging course, cuz i release that my course mainly focus in pda, which was like =.= i though more in need of computer , whileeeee guess i was wrong !

ok , i rmb i gt TONS gt words, but only this all i managed to rmb when i start to post ~ ok , better than nth right :D

HELL YEAH ! ok break off again . can't stand it le . ask urself why , i am too tired to explain le . i did feel guilty for scolding my dad like that, but yeah , what i say was true , what i say was how i felt , i am just nothing , i know . but i won't just die . i know i won't

!@#$%^& ! ys is so dumb mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn , he is actually jealous and du lan over a game ! , that's well , so imature and childish ! o yeh , @#$% . u dou can ren over HER le, u already did so well le , why bother wasting so much time and emotion on de dumb game. :D i believe i can do this, cause wo dou ke yi ren zu hen HER zai yi qi de shi hou le ! i am pretty proud of it , :D .

lucky i changed the link
actually no much dif, no 1 will understand this
expect. YS

feel like explaining ! But never mind . Only when you asked ba .
Happy birthday sis ,

everything that has happened is all my fault. seiorusly. so welllllllllllllll don think too much. just feel like saying this ! it's true

haha , quite happy today that i found my wallet which was lost months ago :) quite funny when the person told me that my wallet was found in sentosa !
Should not say too much , just glad that i can get back the neo prints ,and some cards , although mostly are stolen and my wallet are ruin by sands :(
Ok i am quite happy :)

Don't know why , i just feel quite lonely in this moment , i mean it's like i am falling back and no one there to catch me . It's just like i am living in this world alone. It's quite scary man ,
I am going mad if this com't , maybe i just need some concern and care , or even attention , i don't know !

O , karen , i misses you :) if only i can tell you everything , ya ya ya ,

current donnoe what to do , after dying for 25 times at boss in game 1 . lazy play le ! wanna service myself but no money =.= so suan le ! i soooooooooooooooo not tired, rakion no ppl on. gunbound i don wnat play alone, lost interest in dota toooooooooo !


so what now , what can con't distracting my attention , my thoughs .
who knows.
bye.

so late le ! Hmmm . Suddenly just think of the time that you cried , oh that's so sad , ar ! Just a thought out of no where , don't say i emo :)

I feel like leaving a scar or whatever on my body to rmb you , i know it's like mad , dumb and even perverted ! But still feeling this way la . But no fear , ys is not so stupid to go slash wrist or do what shit , cause i believe my body belong to my parent , so ya ,

shag,

ar donnoe why

k really don't know what to update on ! perhaps what i did today !

k , today went out with aloy and joel to suntec plus bugis !! we roam around to look for aloy speaker, then we went to bugis to look for joel belt ! nth happened LOL, just that i missed my DA mouth performence :(

HAPPY and SAD

Woots ! haha , i am buying my laptop by myself . actually i don't mind. and i suggest de ! butttttttt what important is U. why does u give so much comment mannnnnnnnnnnn ! i know la , my bank acc is ALL ur money, like i say, i only LENT. and i will work and pay u back. what more do u want !

first say use the money from there is u , now kp 1 also u , i know it's UR money. but not like i won't pay back right. and hor , other ppl all gt their child bank acc for themself, then why can't I , but actually ur quite right too , the money inside is all the allowence u given me, and i save bit by bit up ( including my ang pows) ya ! so it's URS.

fine fine, i just smile :D hahahahahhaha , any friend that read this, send me a joke thanks.

FOLLOW MY HEART , WHICH IT ASK ME TO GO TAKE A LONG BREAK AGAIN ,
OK BYE.

i hate being dam sensitive like what i am feeling now ,
i fucking need some1 to confide to
ar, how long will this last again .
this sucks

ok finsh the job le. shoik ! nth much , ciaoz

i will juz pretend i saw nth
cuz it's a decision i never regret
but i am still full of worries .

by right today is not the day that going out with them ,but suan le , fated ! i mention twice and actually he din know . i don't really know if people do read my msg or they just skip through , who knows , ( not blaming or what, juz my thought)

ok, trying very H-A-R-D to control this feeling,
i hope i don't lose out
becuz when i do ,
terrible things will occur,
so fuck ys :D

ok back and gone ,

back from my long holidays :D sort out some stuff , and ya ! that's all , i will stop the mia .

I really hope this last forever ,

a quick post before i going to sleep ! ok , ytd + today was great ! i went mah jong overnight with my cousin :D hahah i really enjoy us gathering together. it's like i can really put my guards down , and juz relax and enjoy the moment with them :D thanks ! hahahaha, ok , i bought my contact lense le , 140$ , if that dog benny not give me pay i sure die LOL, hahaha ok , CIAO .

ok , today will be all emooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo . LOL jk la, i so happy go lucky , emo for what ? juz hope i don spend the whole day looking at computer ! that's my defination of NO LIFE.

wo ming bai le :D ok , suits u

Fuck, i actually believe u for a second that ur going to change, nah, ur not changing ! and i am dam disappointed on u . anyway, who am i ? why should i care, yeh only can do my part to say that all the best for u le .

i think i am far more better than u le , but yeh, i am unclear do i still really love her, or whatever shit, cuz after so much thinking, i only believe that i am just holding on to do the precious moment we spend together, and i can't take it when u drift away from me, ya, i think it's like this ! so i am maybe jealous instead ! who knows! but whatever it is, i have decided not to keep looking back , yy it's right, why keep bother abt the past, since it already past juz fuck it off and con't ur life man. it's not like we can turn back the time and remake our decision. ya, so i ammmmmmmmmmmm so going to forget JUNE. yes , a promise made to myself, all the best to u :D i mean it .

yes, i sure soooooooo going to miss it butttttttttt it's better for both of us ( maybe only me ) whatever, i need time, time . really i will do it this time . i would .

PS: i am fucking disappointed with u . GND
PS: aloy u idiot make me so nth to do for 2 weeks, sian lei !

going watching the concerto for today, cuz i am sick and throat is dam pain ! dam it , should i drink de breezer ytd ! okkkkkkkk, so aloy need 2 more weeks to work , which mean i must work 2 more week and earn lesserrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, it's so sian lor ! Ar! siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn . ok , i go watch le , don really know what to update on. cuz my life is always de same . it's always ------------------------------------------------- which no climax -------^------ hahaahahahah lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ys

woots , today will be going to search job with yy , haha . Then go take the pay , and woots use the money buy dumbbell :) o i go bath and prepare go le . Cya

welllllll, today was fun, i managed to get my new posb card, then apply for de job ! yes !!! k, then we went joel hse mahjong , quite fun ( although i din play much ) k , then melvinder was really quite a fun guy to be with , only he smoke too much _|_ LOL . ok and jesmond make a dam funny joke, it goes,

Melvinder: i have being winning money from blackjack
Jesmond : becuz ur good in BLACKjack

LOL, it go something like this, my memory is failing me , ok i am quite tired looking at de words le , so CIAO

:D

thinking that i lost my wallet make me dam sian now =.= it's was still alright when i found out i lose it . i think cause that time i still believe i will somemore got it back ba ! so wellll, nbm ! what i really sad now is that i lost my baby photo in my wallet , i mean a neo print which is took on thailand ! ok , speaking of neo print , i juz rmb i lost 2 more of de precious memory of SEC 3, haix ! ok , it's desired for us to drift from each other . that's really really saddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

ok tml morning will be going to bank to cancel and make new atm card. ( i mean ltr , cuz it's 12 am le) ok , so its going to be a good daY ! o , will be going back to ijc to sudmit my withdrawn form, quite missing my ogl LOL. then lastly will be going to chinatown to find job, ok, too tired le . ciao !

i really hope someone found de wallet, cuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz what important to me is only de neoprint. ok nbm

ar , i believe i deserve this=.= . anyway sry yh hahaha, ok , what i mean i deserve is , I LOSE MY WALLET ! quite sian, must re-make my atm , plus i haven cancel it ! but it's alright . ok , is i go insult yh first LOl, i go tab my card which is de "children" fare lol , then i call yh listen , then when de moment i go down , i juz release my wallet is gone ! and the bus juz booooommmmmmmmmmm go over us LOL . ok nbm , i believe some kind soul will pass de wallet to the driver, lose money still ok , but don lose my nebo card + atm all this , really trouble ar ! please please, i will have faith !

ok that's all , time to sudoku will that noob lilin till she wanna stop, cuz i owe her one ! hahaha, anywayyyyyyy , goodbye ijc, erm actually gt abit miss it lol... ok don say le . CIAO

hahah , genie for de win !!!!!!!!!!! hahah. yy SAW THAT ! lol , anyway today was quite funny, i spend abt 1 h playing MSN game with that noob sb lilin( who ask u call me fb) hahaha, quite fun , and sudoku was dam LOL.

then the rest of de afternoon was either sleeping eating or reading "keepin faith" haha, nice book :D thanks ar .

o ya, this quote juz came to my mind lol, the strong memory bababbaa than de weakest ink LOL, dam i forget le, but no fear it's in my notes, LOL . de leature solid sia , say 1 week will forget , now haven 3 days i forget le ! hahah. so this say, must tkae notes, so can rmb what we learn!

OPPPPPPPPS, accidently remove de song when i change de skin , so ltr put back ba ! hahah , today will be a bad day, cuz my throat is "cram" together le, goin sore throat le . and and , i drank dam lots of water le , it just does not help haha. so suffer abit tml !

and and , my cousin brought a CPU for 640 + i think quite worth sia, hmmmmmm so should i buy ? i don't really know. if i go into a poly i may consider buying it, cuz i will be workign and have de money to buy hahaha, but again if i go poly i will buy de laptop , hmmm , so seriously i donnoe ! but it's alright it's still longggggggggg .

ok it's 3am plus le , i going sleep soon le ! i have being wondering, is everyone changing , or everyone have being like this, or have i changed? don't know ! yawns , night people

o and ya, i love genie :D

ok , today woke at 6 LOL, and thought i need to go for sch , hahaha then juz rmb it's sat and i drop dead str8 away hahah, ok , today need to cook de tom yam soup for my steamboat tonight , hmmmmm so hope everything go went ( hope it's edible) hahaha ! don't really know what to update abt, and i changed a skin cuz i was too bore ! anyway , leave me a tag if u want me to link u , causeeeee i am not lazy anymore :D

hahah , back home ! fianlly de OG has end , =.= tiring lei , ok , went to jc today, actually it's not as bad as i thought, juz that i really have to be serious and not to fool around, 2 yrs is dam short ! i just need a little more time to adapt :D anyway, if really go in also nbm , cuz i believe i can do it!

i don think if i can be like him , i mean , for de sake of love , willing to change SO MUCH for u, i really don't know, i can't say any empty words now , it's only till i am tested ( which will never happen) haha, but it's glad he is going back to last time , that's cool :D . so ya, i feel dammmmmmmmmmm wanna tell u abt this, since, ytd ytdddddddddddddddddd . it's so hard to resist man ! but telling this being betraying him , so ya, i won'tttttttttttttttttttttt ( but i feel like) u all may think i am mad or not , LOL but that's how things are appearing on my brain , like de devil and de angel side of me haha .

i think i can forget abt u , i really can, i juz need more time , and of cuz . u to end it ! ( cuz it won't start ) sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo, juz str8 foward and tell me ba ,

chang tong bu ru dun tong ,

now i do understand , it's not about going where , it's about what you going to do there , there's no point stressing out , being a idiot whineing here and there , all i need is to do well to anywhere i went , yes , i will do my best in anywhere . Hell to life , let me ram over .

Ps . Thanks :)

tml will be a better day , ok crap , tml be reporting for jc :) i hope i will last one week :) :) .

It's hard suppressing the feeling , but it's will be nothing more than a friend , because really do love you . It's worth :)

just friend only , please .
Nothing much more i swear
Please , trust me , just friend .
Please .

Happy cny to all

already cold war so long le , what you want ? Haix . Thanks man , you all break the promise , then scold me , kp me . Then everything turn my fault . Excellent :) i will clap for you all . So , now , i will learn how to make someone angry , du lan . While not being the one in fault . Ya , i will seriously do this .

Fuck you .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENIE ZHUO WEN XUANNNNNNNNN ! !


today was so boreeeeeeeeeeeeee , not going bball le ! ytd + ytd ytd is a great day ! we ton at yf hse to play mahjong LOL , dam funnyyyyyyy . actually i don really know what to update of =.= my life is as bore as ... hahah can't think of any comparsion ! k , all i can say is i am looking forward to thursday !!!!!!! where we gang can come together to SHOP again ;D


anddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd , lastly
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENIE ;D ( although u won't see this)

woots ! saw genie again :DD but sian , not really clear ! . o yeh , she in cute verison today , so chioooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo la !

lol, i have a good comparison to what i am doing now , i am actually styling hair ( this i hate last time ) , wearing contact lenese ( which i don like last time ) , goin for ear hole ( which i feel gay last time ) , it's juz like de twiilight , belle , cheating on what she promised , actually i don really need or want all this ! i do it cuz i wanna have de feel of "not-the-usually-ys" . u may say i am mad , but going against "bad" make me feel sort of cool .

donnoe what changed me , but this feeling is better .

ARRRRRRRRRRRR. genie FTW , omg , she so pretty, so so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee , soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute. ar,but hope the "real" her also like this la ! sian, i don't think i am going to attend such event anymore. cuzz. firstly, i never want someone's attention so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh , secondly i want herrrrrrrrrrrrrr . this sucks , de feeling sucks. during de concert , i juz feel , wahhhhhhh if i can know her, that's go GREAT ! arrrrrrrrrrr, i donnoe la , ihate this i really really hate this ! and after con't read de twiilight book 1 and 2 , as usually a world created in my mind , but this time it's worse =.= . after reading for so longggggggggg i am actually feeling what de person was feeling, i donnoe how to explain , but this so . . . ! it sucks !

when i do thing, i get de feeeling when edward left bella , and yeh ! and yeh , and . k nth, i donnoe how to explain this . and i am lazy to remove , so left it here

k , don say i emo , i juz feeling LOST. who am i , and what am i .

hmmm , yes !i make it to poly !!! hhahahaha
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this suckssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
i can't control this feeling well ,
i din really score well for my olvl
i never do well for my standard
i donnoe where to go with my marks
i am stress with my life ,
i have no more aim nor promise
+ yf is gone , no 1 to confront ,
. what to do , :( please reply me like last time , thanks ton

for ur fucking attitude go fuck urself , fuck u man . u seriously sucks, tmd gnd man . i only ask 1 fucking question and u need so xl la , ccb , go fuck urself la . what a great friend ur being, i am dam dulan abt u le . congrats for over my limit , i have no more patience for u .
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last day. good luck ys.

ya, it's time to update ! ok , i just finish watching red cliff 2 , awesome xD . go watch hahaha , on top of it , i went to dunearn + ijc LooooooooooooooL . poor aloy ar ! :D . ok, nth much to say actually , juz was sian + sian + sian . catch up with some friends and feel nice haha . count down : 2 days

although u all will say i crap or fake or ttm or negative . but .. LOL never mind i not going to type it le . firstly cuz i don want to curse myself , secondly , i don think i will be motivated to do it . k so nth LOL

lasttttttttt but no least LOL , i am going to logistic baaaaaa since there a few course that i am really interested in .

Ps: u found out ? (no please , nth happened previously )

today was fun !! went to sch , and ya, walk walk around , play bball ,talk , slack , quite relaxing !!! ok , after that we went to yingyao hse , LOL man , we play a game which is like dam fun la ! i donnoe to them or not , but to me , it's so cool + fun LOL . maybe going back tml . see first ba !! like i say , i am really back to normal :D all those emo moment are over, time for a happy go lucky YS ,
PS: i will do my best to find a job soon , ( dam in need of money)
Pps, i will buy my new year clothes myself !!
pppsssss, COUNTDOWN TO OLVL :6 DAYS

i decided le , i won't be like this le :) this will only scare her . Ok ! I won't even mention about this incident or whatever le , ya !

Wo yao tou tou de ai zhe ni

i think u have realise who ur , i really regret that i have actually said out all this in my blog, fuck man , maybe ur going to ignore me , maybe u not going to contact me , maybe we can't even be friend . ya , i am being sensitive again , but fuck man , i really hate this feeling , i cant help but recall abt what happened before. can u tell me that all this is juz a dream , can any1 do this please , i really really wish that it is , cuz it sucks , it hurts. i donnoe why , but i wish that ur not lying abt what u said that time , cuz , that de only happy thing that will keep me hanging,

and , my "G" key , juz become a touch 1 , instead of pressing.

u know what , this sucks , it really do , i really really donnoe what to say , u definitely won't believe this. how i wish to tell u , but how would u believe me , after all it's so long le . i really wanna sms u , " would u believe that i still like you " but , yeh i know , it's impossbile , so that's it ! during that malaysia trip , my mind was full of YOU , but i juz feel guilty, and i deny that , but after what happened, i will admit it , de feeling are back . u may say that i sort of mess up or whatever , but i am quite sure what i am saying . i can rmb what we did , what we say , what i do , but it's all over, and i am sure it wont repeat , let me end with , I SUCKS.

JUNE , U KNOW JUNE ? FUCK.

i have came up to a decision le , but yf i tell u what , i juz dreamed of HER, it was dam good , i don think i can forget abt her , it's dam dam dam hard . i really wish i was at june , those memories are pretty good , please man , this sucks ! i now it is i-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e , but it juz cant forget , you know who .

PS, i love and i hate june

first , i will update de post promised to skj !
24/12/08 !
CHIRSTMAS EVE WAS FUNNNNN. lol , but it was quite sad, i bought a lousy spray , in the end causing aloy and joel to pay more !!! sorry ! starting there was no 1 playing , then they all like sian sian . scare if no ppl going to plaY ! after that , we went ard cini ! there was dam many ppl ! we have fun ! and jolene was a teamkiller , she keep spray on us lol ! most funny part was, when all , yf , joel , jolene , aloy , they all spray on me LOL and de reason is , cuz i was wearing black , and they mistook me as de other person LOL , dam funny when i stand up and they say " LOL WRONG PERSON" ok that's all i can rmb , after it we went to clubbing , which ltr was cancel , and we WALK to bugis there , dined and home . de food was nice , chat was good ! aloy was drunk and keep talking alot , making us all laugh at his action ! hahahahaha !

31/12/08 !
LOL , this was SO LOL , me cadman yx was supposed to buy de food for steamboat AND , i acutally think bringing 20 dollar was enough LOLLOL , cadman only brought 5 LOL . so in the end , we spent 120 , which was need to pay by my nets . ok , after taht we went to aloy hse ! which was dammmmmmmmm nice and quite big ! then yx cooked noodle for me and cadman ! then we proceed to our preparation of steamboat , and yf and pris joined ! when all is done , abt 6.30 ++ Yy came !! and we started our firsrt round of steamboat ! it's was fun man everyone enjoying it ! woots, macham like family like this hahaha ! cooking for each other ! ok , next some1 did a super irrrating thing , spoilt mood only , but funny , no 1 cared abt ! then then we play murder , and was so high ! lol and many more games ! after it we went to de living room and chat abt ghost story , woah make my heart dam tensed LOL . and joel soon came ,me yy and him went to cheers to buy de wine + beer . then RAN to aloy hse , cuz we was late for countdown , but lucky we make it on time ! so i went around shaking ppl hand say happy new year ! hahaha
PS. i say my new year resoultion , which was to get good o lvl result LOL

1/1/09!
happy new year guys :D ok this was fun, we start drinking our beer and wine , and no 1 shared with me , so i drink de whole bottle of breezer , the drink was like orange only lor , only bitter abit ! then i feel quite sleepy and dizzy LOL . and we watched de M18 ghost story , de story was dots ! lol firstly , not scary ! secondly no nude screen , LOL i wonder why m18 !!! ok , next we proceed to de 2nd round of steamboat LOL , this was for joel, cause he haven eat, was quite quiet during de 2nd round . but it was still so full and nice :D . then we went in de aloy 's room to play "bridge" quite a fun game intro and taught by YY. hahah , then we start playing blackjack , betting on 10 cent per card ! i lost 2.50 and joel 2.50 and yy won 5 , while yf never win or lose LOL . after it we play de see-whose-card-most-small then we must drinnk de beer LOL, i drink for 2 times , YUCKS, then next , we go take a new can , now different case le , now is pour-how-much-drink-loser-drink LOL, then yy was dam LUCKY, he poor half bottle of can , and yf was to drink all of it LLOLLLLL . ok , bad start right ! start new year on gambling and drinking ! so we was going to send joel down for cab, AND , WE STUCK IN DE LIFT LOL !! WHAT A GOOD DAY LOL. lucky sia , last moment i bring my phone along, LOL so dam lucky , ok so we waited around 30 min and de person get us out ! and send joel home , and we went to guest room to sleep le! woke at 6 and went walked to lot 1 with yy , chatted and was hmmm cool ! then home sweet home !